Last night I had multiple dreams around the same theme... pre-term labor. Each time I had the dream I was with a different friend (two that I haven't seen in a long time- but I was/is close to). Another time I was with my parents. Each time it was the same problem though- I was going into labor and I am only 26/27 weeks. Quite honestly it freaked me out. I just kept hoping to be put on bedrest, but the inevitable was birth. The interesting part of it (as I reflect on it now) I never got to the part about birth. I would wake up. So- hopefully that means it was just a dream and nothing more. Perhaps my own fears really wreaking havoc upon my night. I'm sure it was just that.

Pregnancy hormones are at full force! My mood swings are crazy! Rob didn't know what to do with me last night. I was grumpy, mad, and crying and I couldn't explain why. When he asked me what was wrong I burst out in tears- then laughed because I couldn't tell why! He was quite perplexed. So I told him to blame pregnancy. Granted, there are quite a few stresses in our lives right now- especially financial, so of course that doesn't help. But I'm feeling just plain crazy! =0) Although crying it out actually helped me feel a little better. Ahhh.... Should be interesting when I'm truly exhausted once our baby arrives! I'm hoping I won't be, but I'm pretty sure I'm going to be a wreck! FUN!

Life isn't too bad. The store is slowly progressing. I am trying to get new merchandise, etc. Rob has a new "grand opening" goal for June 1st. Maybe that one will see better success than the last. There is definitely a new level of stress when you are a store owner. I'm trying to figure out how to be there more, and yet keep a more "normal" life for my kids. I think for our family "normal" is spending some time at the store. I'm trying to keep the kids out of it as much as possible just so they can be kids, but things aren't able to get done there. Well- not as quickly. So- once again, we slightly adjust the schedule and see what we can do. =0)

Time to attack the day!

May

And so, here is May. Rob has officially been done with UPS for a month. It's been financially stressful, but oddly satisfying. The store is gaining progress slowly but surely, so that's good. There are positive signs surrounding me letting me know that the decisions we've made are right. I often think about how quickly Rob left UPS, how it would have been financially better to stay, but then it was such an emotional hell with him being there that this hardship is bearable with him not there.

Audrey is improving in her class. For Mother's Day the Kindergarten did a fashion show. It was so cute!! The kids chose their outfits- some wore team uniforms, halloween costumes, or just something special. Audrey's outfit was truly... Audrey. She wore her pink strappy "princess" dress, with her pink winter gloves, a pink scarf, carrying her pink "skirt" purse. She had her pink rose hair clip and her hair done in ringlets... like Goldilocks. She was pretty cute if I do say so myself. =0) And of course she hammed up the whole time in the spotlight. She sure can make me smile.

Nikki made me do her hair like Audrey's for the event. She wanted me to use the curling iron, but her hair was too wet. So I did Mom's trick of curling it around my finger. She wore one of her favorite dresses and the girls looked so cute. Nikki really is a girlie-girl. She is a fun one to be with. It was one of those days where you feel like a successful mother. It helped to have comments from so many ladies about how cute my girls were. Now if we could just be that cute everyday! hahaha.

For Mother's Day Rob and the girls gave me a certificate for a facial and haircut. The facial felt sooo good. It's moments like those when I really miss working in the salon. Hmmm.... The haircut was fine. A little too blah for me, but manageable. Now it's just a matter of growing it out again so I can get it the way I want it.

I have come to realize that my greatest challenge right now is organization. This is all inclusive! My time, money, house, and work. There is so much I want and need to do and so many nights where I reflect on the day, felt like it was busy, but then feel like I've really not accomplished anything. I don't know if this is a mother dilemma, or just me. So my new goal is to really get organized. This might sound bad- but Rob informed me last night that he would be working more, thus not being home as much. I was a little excited about it. I seem to get more accomplished when he's not around so much. It's not that I don't love his company- it's just that I don't get as much done. So hopefully with all the changes that seem to still be occurring, more good things will happen. =0) Only time will tell.